It's still dark and my mind is focused on all that lays around me. I want my anxious thoughts to be still. I pray, "God it's yours I am laying it at your feet."
The children gather around the table with bowls of marshmellowy cereal. Our time of reading is from the book of Titus.
Once we, too, were foolish and disobedient. We were misled by others and became slaves to many wicked desires and evil pleasures. Our lives were full of evil and envy. We hated others, and they hated us.But then God our Savior showed us his kindness and love. He saved us, NOT because of the good things we did, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins and gave us a new life through the Holy Spirit. He generously poured out the Spirit upon us because of what Jesus Christ our Savior did. He declared us not guilty because of his great kindness. And now we know that we will inherit eternal life.
"Kid's", I say, "this is grace. Grace means getting something we don't deserve. And this tells us that while we were still sinning and doing horrid things Jesus came and freely showed us kindness. We don't deserve any of this but he gave it anyway.
Can you understand what that means?
Let me give you an example."
I shared with them a very raw and difficult example of something happening to us at this moment.
"We need to give as much grace and mercy as we have been shown".
It made the little one instantly well up with tears. This decision effects her very much. I held her and cried with her.
It went against my son's sense of justice and anger was shown.
I still am weepy as I type.
God has once again given us the opportunity to live out the very thing that we read. Not just hearers but doers of his Word.
I am thankful that you count me worthy to be tested and tried. May I come forth as gold. Not to my glory but yours O God. You are the one who unselfishly and freely laid down your life while I was deeply entrenched in my sin. You are the one who showered your mercy on me while I didn't deserve it. You are the one who pours your Holy Spirit out. You are the one who is preparing our hearts for eternity with you. I want to live my life for you alone. You know what's best for us and we trust you today.
May it be as you desire.