Friday, October 29, 2010
I haven't done this for such a long time.
But it sounded like fun and I wanna be like Linda when I grow up so I thought I'd join.
1. What's your favorite time of day and why?
I have always loved night time. As a teen I loooved to stay up late and sleep in. As a young mom I loved to put those sweet little pea pods to bed so I could have a little time to myself. And now that I go to bed before my big kids I am starting to enjoy morning..well...mid morning.
So maybe it's the quiet I like:)
2. What has made you laugh lately?
I laugh when my kids say funny things. They make me laugh sometimes behind my hand and sometimes out loud. My main man is pretty funny too...He comes up with some laughable one liners but once again sometimes I just laugh inside cause I don't want to encourage his behavior but then again other times I just let it all out.:0
3. What was your favorite toy as a kid?
I played with a lot of doll type toys. Barbies, Paper dolls and baby dolls. The funny thing is I also loved playing ball and climbing trees. It must of been the strong male influence since I followed 2 brothers. While playing church you could find me sitting on the steps with my doll. I was the worship leader and my brother was the gun slinging preacher. We would have done well in the west.
4. What do you remember about your high school prom?
Well, technically we didn't have a prom because I was at a private school. We did have "banquets" though.
For my senior year... I went with a couple of my bff's and friends we invited along. To be real honest I don't remember much of it at all. I had a hot pink dress with a bow...stunning!
It was the 90's!
5.What would I find in your refrigerator right now?
Gracious! It needs to be cleaned out! Cheese, Oj, Apple Cider, ham, avocado, left over quiche, vanilla coke, milk, white chocolate creamer, lettuce, apples, grapes, sweet potatoes, butter, 3 jars of mayo???? mustard, bbq sauce, parm cheese, olives, garlic, lemon juice, cottage cheese, sour cream, grape jelly, eggs, smokielinks, juice box, bagels....
6. Which do you like better.. hands or feet.
It depends on whose. I love my guys feet. But let's face it...sometimes feet can be emmm..gross.
Toe Jam and smells can be overwhelming.
So maybe I should stick with hands.:)
7. What is the craziest thing you've ever done.
About 3 years ago we went white water rafting with some friends. That was nutty! Our raft tipped over during a very dangerous part of the river...
You can read about it in a previous post.
I thought I was gonna die.
Phhewww... Now I better go clean out the fridge!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Do something so risky that it might cost you everything?
Some personalities are more given to adventure and mess and the unknown
while others are quite comfortable with the familiar unchanging routine of the day.
I fall somewhere in the middle.
I love change...
Especially when I'm leaving winter.
I don't really ever care for mess.
I like things "in order" and predictable when it comes time for relationships and my dwelling place.
It smells better. And I feel like everything is "right with the world".
It's security for me.
Likes to come in and change the furniture around every so often. Not the way I like to change it up but sometimes he comes in and takes my bed and strips it down, removing my 2 big fluffy, down, comforters. He takes that bed from the upstairs room and moves it down to the basement. It's not because he's mean or playing tricks on me. It's not for aesthetic reasons. And I certainly know it doesn't smell better down there!
It's to move me.
Because he knows my propensity to stay in the same familiar place.
Under that big comforter that brings me comfort.
It's non threatening.
But if I stay under it too long I will suffocate.
And he knows that.
He, in all his wisdom, calls us out of our comforts
and when he does that
we can be assured that
it's for a higher purpose.
For a greater call.
For a new day.
I have a lot more to tell you, things you never knew existed. This isn't a variation on the same old thing. This is new, brand-new, something you'd never guess or dream up. When you hear this you won't be able to say, 'I knew that all along.' You've never been good listeners to me. You have a history of ignoring me, A sorry track record of fickle attachments— rebels from the womb. But out of the sheer goodness of my heart, because of who I am, I keep a tight rein on my anger and hold my temper. I don't wash my hands of you. Do you see what I've done? I've refined you, but not without fire. I've tested you like silver in the furnace of affliction. Out of myself, simply because of who I am, I do what I do. I have my reputation to keep up. I'm not playing second fiddle to either gods or people.
Isaiah 48:1-3 Message
He is bringing something new
that's what he does to keep his people close to his heart.
I ran across this poem today....
Disturb us, Lord, when
We are too well pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we have dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.
Disturb us, Lord, when
With the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.
Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,
To venture on wider seas
Where storms will show your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.
We ask You to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push into the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.
~Sir Francis Drake ~
It's a scary bumpy ride..
I know who is driving this ship.
And the lights from the shore seem further and further away each day as we go deeper out to sea.
And I realize more and more that I don't really need that comforter on my bed as much as I used to because he is
"The Great Comforter".
He likes to come clean up messes, especially his people who look messy.
So maybe I should too.
He risked everything to show me his love so what is it that I need to risk?
What is it that he's asking you to risk?
Do you have an old blanket that you just can't crawl out from underneath?
Do you think maybe this could be a new day for you?
I have this feeling in my gut....
that when he gets me out to the middle of the sea
he's gonna look at me and say...
"Get out of the boat".
But that's another post.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
When I started this 2 years and 262 posts ago I was at a different season then I feel like I am today. While I still feel very fortunate to have been blessed with the gifts God gives I feel like my life is described better these days by a molded heart.
The potter has been intensely shaping this heart for a very long time~ And I believe that as long as I live and breathe he will need to remold and reshape. It's a painful process but I have never felt like I'm in better hands.
Lately I have been thinking about his cup.
The Cup of suffering.
When he asks his disciples.... "can you drink the cup I am going to drink". matt 20:22
They respond with a "Yes we can"...
I must applaud the willing heart but
they had no idea what they were agreeing to.
The horror and heartbreak they were all about to experience as they would watch the one whom they believed to be the Messiah be cruelly beaten and executed in the most terrifying fashion.
And then after his Crucifixion they would be hunted down as criminals and brutally murdered.
Truly this is the question we must all answer....
Am I willing to drink from his cup?
Of course I don't know what all that means.
He doesn't disclose that.
It's part of the mystery of living by faith.
But if I say I am a follower then I must follow my leader.
Laying down my life as he did.
Giving up my quest for "happiness"
Having a peace that is not ruled by my circumstances.
In my heart I know this...
I will never be able to experience gain until I have sipped from the cup.
In my sipping a churning takes place in my heart that allows me to partake with him.
To try to understand with my feeble mind what it must have been like for him.
To have a seat at his table.
And in the process...
I am changed.
And that is gain.
The thing is,
It doesn't just happen once and then magically I am transported to bliss...
The making of a new nature.
And just like new birth..
It takes time
growth comes slowly
And I must learn to embrace it.
While all of our sufferings look different.(Frankly mine feel like Mickey mouse trials in comparison to many who have gone before me.)
But in the end I can stand with my brothers and sisters, those who walked with him and knew if he snored and if he actually liked figs(since he did tell that fig tree to wither up and die)!:)
The ones who boldly stood before kings and proclaimed Jesus Christ even to the point of death.
Those who willingly drank from the cup of suffering.
On that final day of judgement,
To stand with that crowd would be an honor!
That will be gain my friends
That will indeed be Gain!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Aint those such purty taters?
I know it's unacceptable for us northern folk to talk like that but I'm just practicing...
Cause I'm getting ready to move south!
It's not that we are actually packing yet
I think God may call us there one day...
So I'm living in Faith.
Practicing talking like Paula Deen.
Learning to use lots of buttah, biscuits and sweet potatoes.
Monday, October 25, 2010
So for the past couple of years some of our friends have been telling us that we really need to travel with them on our fall break.
Every year there is a group that goes camping at Turkey Run State Park.
But it's kind of hard to get a spot so they book way back in the Spring.
We don't typically plan to camp that far ahead.
Planning the month before would be more our speed.
So we never went along.
We knew that our priority this summer would be to spend lots of family time doing special things with our kids...
we said yes let's do it.
And what a treat it was!
Honestly I never knew anything so beautiful could exist in Indiana.
We are not known for our canyons and rock climbing.
We are mostly known for corn fields, RV's, Notre Dame, and the Amish.
None of which I would drive very far to stare at.
But we have more to offer my friends!
Look at all the offspring we produced!
Lots of chances to enjoy God's handiwork.
Some intense games..
And squeeze the ones I cherish most.
What a wonderful memory~
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
I notice the familiar "Hey" is missing as little one enters the kitchen.
As I see her face I can tell there was an "incident".
"What happened sweetie?" I ask.
"Oh nothing". She tries to convince me but her lip gives her away.
I try to persuade, "tell me love, what's wrong".
"I don't want to talk about it". She insists.
I wont let her go that easy.
If there's one thing I know about girls big or small we like to be persuaded in these ways.
One ask isn't enough.
It should be followed up with an
"I really want to know what's wrong...Did I do something...Was there a problem with your friend...."
So I try...
And Try Some more...
I cuddle and I stroke her hair, and arm. But no breaking...
Only a little tear escapes her eye as she says she feels foolish talking about it and she doesn't want to cry.
She's breaking my heart!
If the can opener would have worked I would have given it a try!
I reassure her of my love and my open heart to hearing anytime.
I tell her that's what moms are for.
And I am left to imagine what she might be dealing with.
Did her special friends say something unkind?
Does she feel like she has to be perfect ?
I Wonder if someone rejected her?
Those are my secrets.
The thoughts that I don't tell.
In our study this week Beth said a VERY profound truth....
When the Holy Spirit comes to convict he is VERY specific.
He tells us of the area we need to make right.
He is loving. Not condemning.
When Satan comes He Speaks in very General, Broad terms
He tells us what a heap of rubble we are.
That no one likes us now and never will.
We might as well just lay down and die.
And we believe it!
We believe we no longer have worth.
We believe it!
And the reason he doesn't want us to know our value is because when we find out who Christ has called us to be
WE ARE DANGEROUS!
The challenge I bring for you today is:
Look up the word love or compassion in your concordance.
See how often God tells you how much he loves you.
How much value you have.
How he esteems you.
Here's a couple just to get you started.
Lord God my Savior, when your kindness an love appeared, you saved me, not because of the righteous things I had done but because of your mercy. titus 3:4
You Lord God are with me, You are mighty to save. You will take great delight in me, you will quiet me with your love, you will rejoice over me with singing! Zeph 3:17
You are my sun and shield; You, Lord bestow favor and honor; no good thing do you withhold from those whose walk is blameless. Ps. 84:11
Great is your love toward me, O Lord. Your faithfulness endures forever. Ps 117:2
Would you take this challenge with me?
To know we are loved, called and esteemed by the King of the Universe is pretty amazing!
You are loved my friend!
And on top of that...
That same God thinks you are cool enough to hang out with!
He is so into you that he waits for you night and day!
Let's reject the lies that Satan tells us...either through people or just in our own little heads.
How bout it...
Let's see how Dangerous we can be!
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I've got the joy joy joy joy
Down in my heart...
Recently I've been reflecting on joy.
But a deep joy that absorbs me in peace and contentment.
While I know that God's word is primary in bringing this about...
there are daily or weekly things that I can also do while I'm living here.
I have been challenged to take baby steps in this area.
Just the Simple things that can make all the difference in finding joy.
So I made a list.
1. I love to entertain.
To make my home a place where my loved ones can come and feel cared for. A place my children can bring friends. A warm atmosphere with nourishing food or party snacks.
2. I love to eat out with friends.
A group of people who share a love for one another. How refreshing to be with friends and have someone else cook and clean up for us. Only conversation on our mind.
A time to reflect on nature and all God created. Quiet moments that allow for deeper thinking and rest.
I am not picky where this happens. A lake,a stream, pond, the shore. There is a peace that floods my soul as I sit looking at water, listening to it, breathing in the taste of it.
Nothing brings a smile to my face or tears down my cheeks faster then music. It is soul food for sure. God gave us music to enjoy. And it doesn't matter if you can actually carry a tune or play an instrument....music speaks. And for me, playing is completely cathartic.
6. Coffee with a friend.
A cup of hot coffee with a friend is one of the soothing serums for my soul. It's almost like those beans start talking and we can never shut off the flow...until the workers are turning off the lights or sweeping carpets, asking us if we still need our mugs.
There is something about smell that makes me feel nostalgic, hungry, or sometimes just relaxed and peaceful.
Mmmm....I smell Cinnamon rolls in the oven right now...Love!
8. A funny moment shared with someone I love.
Like a "remember when" story. Or a new little funny thing kids say or prayers they pray...Like last night the little one thanked God for showing her the difference between faith and love. I'm not sure what all that meant but he knows and it made me smile.
Whether its a project, painting a room, giving an old piece of furniture a face lift,making a new recipe,writing a song, or a new blog post....these are all things that give me a sense of joy.
10. Prayer + Walk = Prayer walking
I have become a big fan of this method of exercise. Not only am I getting in a workout but pouring out concerns and Thanksgivings to God...especially when done with someone else is very Powerful.
If you see me walking and my lips are moving...I have not lost my mind...well, that's not a guarantee but it is quite possibly true that I am speaking with my Father.(warning: You may not want to close your eyes for this method of prayer:)
Restoring the joy.
Going back to the simple pleasures that bring peace.
Making time for the things that bring refreshment to my soul.
Baby steps to joy.
Trying to live the thing out.
Making time in the chaos or sadness.
Do you have a list?
I wonder what it might be?
Maybe you could write it out....
And start taking your own baby steps to a joyful today.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Beth Moore is our teacher.
She is as always inspiring.
One of the things that jumps out at me as I study this book is how detailed my Father is. He could've just told us where we are going and that it will be awesome...
he gives us a literal taste of heaven.
I have a new hunger to see his face.
To hold his nail pierced hand.
A new revelation for what will take place.
A fresh awakening as I see the Great
The beginning and the end.
And my friends... I have this awareness that our days here are So short.
~Look, he is coming with the clouds, and every eye will see him, even those who pierced him; and all the peoples of the earth will mourn because of him.~ Rev 1:7
And so shall it be.
Are you as excited as I am?
Seriously It trips me out!
My heart flutters as I ask him
"Is today the day"?
Just think....We are one day closer!
~Picture was taken by my friend Carol... Isn't it Beautiful?!~
Friday, October 15, 2010
Thinking about how honest I want to be.
Seriously considering spilling my heart.
And then I remember....
I don't know who all is reading this.
And I bet most of you don't really care about all my stuff.
I will tell you this....
These days I feel like I am in one of 3 places,
This week I have been more of 3.
I don't have it all together.
But yesterday I sat down at my favorite spot, The piano, And had a beautiful time of pouring out my heart before my Jesus.
Because He knows.
He doesn't Judge me.
And He is very aware that I don't have it all together.
He is perfectly able to handle my imperfections and loves me just the same.
He is a faithful friend that isn't frowning on me this morning because I was such a wreck yesterday.
He loves my honesty and doesn't scorn or look on me with disgust.
He isn't surprised when I make confessions about my thoughts because He knows them long before I confess.
And then He freely Forgives and calls me
And I realize once again why I fell in love with him.
It's not cause I don't have friends here with me who are wonderful listeners and loving and faithful and kind.
He has blessed me with these relationships as well.
But there is None that takes his place.
And when He says he is near to the broken, I say,
"I know that he is cause I have experienced Him".
And I realize that although I don't want to always feel like a bird with a broken wing I know that while I am in the hospital and he is my doctor I am in the safest care.
And He showers me with compassion as I breathe in his word...
"Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary,
and young men stumble and fall:
But those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
They will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40
Maybe you need to fix something that feels broken in you today.
I love to hear from you.
I love to encourage you in the battle.
I'm not going to pretend that I have the ability to fix it.
I know this...
And you and I can go before him together~
He never will turn us away.
He is near to the Broken.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I remember as a kid going to one of my church friend's house and her mom would often have these amazing fresh glazed donuts sitting out to cool.
So after my flash back I thought...I really need to try to make those.
Well the first time I made them I thought I was gonna die at how big the batch was and how long it took me to fry them all up.
When you make donuts they are best fresh so I tried to cart them all over the county before they were day old's.
Well since then I have made them numerous times. Sometimes I cut the recipe in half cause it really does make A LOT!
But if you have a couple hours they are well worth your effort!
4 C. Milk
2 C. Mashed potatoes
1 C. Crisco
1 C. White sugar
Heat Milk,crisco,sugar add salt together in a saucepan until hot. Mix in mashed potatoes...strain for lumps.
Cool this to lukewarm.
(I will often do this at night to cut out the step in the morning...then just reheat to lukewarm in the micro)
In a bowl mix
3 pkgs(or tbsp) of yeast
4 C. Luke warm water
Mix this together.
Yeast can really scare people cause it's touchy but don't worry...
Just remember not too hot or cold... This is one time when it's good to be
Add warm water and yeast.
I always stir it with a fork.
Bubbly is good~
If it doesn't bubble pour it out and try again.
This is the most important step in a yeast recipe.
In a big bowl mix
2 beaten eggs
Mix with cooled mashed potato mixture.
Add 13-14 cups of flour.
Mix in yeast mixture.
Stir together well.
Let rise until double in size.
Roll out onto floured surface. Cut in Round shapes. You can buy a doughnut cutter or just use a glass as a cutter.
Fry in oil..flipping on each side.
I do use a different glaze then Amy does.
My glaze recipe is Very simple.
7 C. Powder sugar
1/2 C. Corn syrup
1 C. Water
1 Tsp Vanilla
Just mix this together. As the donuts come out of the oil I set them on a paper towel and then glaze after I am completely done frying.
Last time I tried to use Squash in place of the Mashed potatoes and added a little cinnamon but I still need to work on that. I would like to learn how to make a pumpkin donut for the fall!
Monday, October 11, 2010
After most of us kids had left home my mom and dad decided to run a bed and breakfast!
They did it for a number of years and one of the items my mom often made was this scrumptious homemade granola.
10 C. Oatmeal
1 C. Sunflower seeds
1 C. Nuts
1 C. Coconut
1 1/2 brown sugar
1 1/2 C water
1 1/2 C. Oil
1 Tbsp Vanilla
1 Tbsp Maple (But I use Almond flavor)
2 tsp. Salt
Mix this all together in a big fix and mix and put it on a 9 x13 baking sheet.
My kids even eat it!
So good for you and so delish!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
I don't do it every day but every so often I get this urge to pick up a brush and slop some paint around until it looks kind of what I had pictured.
Lately I've been using my camera phone and snapping pictures of paintings in stores and then I try to match them.
It's great fun!
Seriously you can do this!
One of the great things about it is...
My 2nd and 5th grader think I'm pretty cool when I get out the paints.
I love it when I can connect with them.
And we have fun doing it together.
It's like elementary art class all over again...
And it's cheaper then therapy...
The only problem is...
I get so caught up in it that I have trouble remembering that there is laundry to fold and dinner to think about....
So I only do it every couple of months.
Otherwise my family will be yelling for socks...(which incidentally I believe they eat cause for the life of me I have NO idea where all those folded socks go)!! ...Actually that should take care of the dinner problem:)
Canvas at Michael's + Paint + brushes(not the real expensive ones just a mid line set) = fantastic fun and creativity!
Enjoy your weekend!~:)
this may be it.
You take a loaf of round bread...
This one I baked and had in the freezer but you can buy it at the bakery.
Load it up with pizza sauce, pepperoni,ham, mozzerella (or any other toppings you like)
Wrap it in foil and bake at 400 for about 45 minutes.
It's easier then pizza and simple as pie!
Especially because of all my kids have going.
Since I stay at home again I am using my days to regroup.
Let me clarify...I DO spend about 2 - 3 hours in the van every day...carpooling..dropping off... picking up...going to events...running around...taking forgotten lunches...and biology books...
It's been good.
And her Very Cool Coach and Team!
My front porch was a little harder to do on a dime.
But again the free bittersweet lines my window.
Cooking over the fire is always so much fun!
It was so fun to catch up on their lives and just enjoy some late night chats (after staying up Later then our teens...proud moment!) around the campfire.
And this boy of mine is in the middle of his very favorite sport...
Cause it gives him a chance to "Tackle" someone!
This is Micah and his good friend Braden who got to play against each other this past week.
On Friday night we celebrated freshman's birthday...she turned 15 and has become quite obsessed with wanting to know details about my social life in my teens...if you know what I mean...So I told her if I had run into a burning house as a teen and realized how unwise it was I wouldn't encourage her to do the same...
Well, at our dinner out that night with the family it came up...AGAIN!
And then they all started talking about where they would go on their honeymoon.
One boy said he was taking his bride to the "seven wonders of the world". One said they would like to go somewhere tropical and the little one said, "I want to go somewhere like......... Indianapolis".