Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
What is it about expectations that make me crazy?!
Seriously, this might be the big issue that needs some serious therapy!
Maybe it comes from the fact that I had to deal with this all my life. I never have fully accepted it and after 37 years I wonder if I ever will!
Being a preacher's kid is not always the easiest place to grow up. Don't get me wrong there are some perks…
Like free food at Christmas.
But there is the down side to the situation….
It's called the unrealistic expectations that some people just naturally seem to have!
I think I referred to this back in my post
It's this whole notion that someone in a leadership position is supposed to be my Savior.
When I am faced with unrealistic expectations this is what I do...
I start talking out loud to myself about the situation.
I do this because:
- I can understand exactly what I'm trying to say
- I don't have to worry that my confidence will be broken and
- It makes me feel like I have been heard in the end!
You should try it! Ha!
There are several things that occur to me as i process this:
A. I hate being put in a box!
B. I hate being labeled a name!
C. I hate being shipped out when I didn't live up to A or B!
So then God stirs me to consider this:
Who have I put in a box?
What name have I given them?
And have I in my head shipped them out because they didn't live up to the standard I had set for them. Maybe they hurt me really bad! Maybe what they did is not even justifiable!
It is so hard not to keep people in those boxes. In fact if you read the label it says exactly who they are. But when I take a closer look I realize that my name is written there too.
I too, need forgiveness.
I too, need to be released from the box.
I too, hate to be shipped on the train sent to no where.
So the lesson for me today was:
I will continue to fight against a sense of false guilt. It is not healthy to live with!
I also want to learn to let other's out of the boxes that I have assigned them.(Even the ones who place those huge expectations on me).
I want to learn to be more forgiving.(Even to people who label me incorrectly)
And the next time I am tempted to Ship someone out(or write them off)maybe I should instead peel off the label, open the box and set them free from my expectations of them.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
And they know that I'm kidding about them being snobs....right guys;)??
So I thought they really should be photographed as well.
It was a happening night on the town:) Even if it was Sunday night and even if it was 3 out!
Nothing big tonight...just a little lightness ...and if you were wondering...
we didn't order coffee!
A number of years ago I heard Dr Dobson say in a broadcast, "if you don't start talking to your child by the 3rd grade about this subject you will possibly miss talking about it altogether". (Obviously how exposed your child is to other children plays into this)
For those who have already been here....do you have anything further to add?
I can honestly say I don't know if I ever have seen a bride smile more than Karissa did tonight. So smiley!
I remember when we first started attending our church. Karissa and her sister Kirstin were the two little girls that loved our then, very little children. They would take our children and play with them after church. They babysat for them during elders meetings. They were such a joy to this mother's heart. And now here she is all grown up.
A beautiful lady who is beginning a wonderful new journey!
Friday, January 23, 2009
I am also under the belief that I can't be a fearful person and truly grateful at the same time.
What does that mean?
There is something about fear that completely depletes a person of thankfulness.
If I am focusing on the thing that scares me instead of on all I have to be grateful for I consume my mind with the fear.
We have been overwhelmed with bad news about the state of our economy. And frankly in the county I live in it has been particularly bleak!
We have been prosperous for many years but have taken a HUGE hit in the past year. People have lost jobs like never before!
Companies that were booming just 12 months ago have shut their doors.
It can be very scary for all of us.
My husband has had his own business in remodeling for the past 10 years. Highs and lows go with this business~He primarily installs windows so January and February are always slower. We know to plan for slow~but this year we cheer every time a call comes in. One more job, for one more week.
Jason and I were talking today about where we are at~ for some reason neither of us are feeling fearful.
There is just this peace that God is in control and has us in his hands.
For many years I would fall into a state of panic. What will happen to us? How will we make it through? But God always has given us way more than we need!
Beth Moore once said, "God is not as concerned with my comfort as he is with my character".
He walks us through these times~The choice on how we will respond is ours.
The thing is~ if we fail, he loves us too much to let us go~so he gives us the chance to repeat the test...sometimes over and over.
I can panic and become consumed with my fears or I can focus on what I have been given.
I am blessed beyond measure.
I really believe that!
It just doesn't leave much room for fears to overwhelm me.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Yesterday was a historical day in our nation. I know that isn't news to you. Unless, of course, you don't watch the news.
I have no intention of making this blog a political one. That is not my calling. I respect people who tell us what's going on in the political arena and where I can be making a difference.
I have my political views but I never want to be so caught up in politics that I forget my first allegiance is to Jesus. And with that comes a love for his people that is more important to me than my world views. So, regardless if President Obama is your guy or not. He is now our president, who has been placed into office. We are commanded to respect his position and pray for him.
I watched much of the inauguration ceremonies yesterday. The part that moved me most was that 100 years ago this would have all been just a dream. So many people through the years have played a key or sometimes a very low key part in this day happening. Who would have ever thought that a slave or a black son would grow up to be President of the United States. No one back then, I am sure! It is a victory for all of us in that regard. It is triumph for all the people who risked their lives hiding and transporting people in the underground railroad. For all the tears shed and injustice that was served….it is justice for those who gave.
I have been thinking about ways that my life has been affected in other areas because of choices that my parents and grandparents made.
My grandfather was given life and put up for adoption when he was a baby. His mother chose to give him life, which in turn gave me life. She has affected four generations because of that choice.
So often it's easy to forget the decision that I make today will affect generations to come.
It's not just about me. My actions have far reaching implications. I may not see that today. But one day whether here or up there, I believe I will.
My decision to live my life passionately instead of mediocre does change the way I "do" life. It changes my perspective. It gives me new priorities.
How about you? What do you want to change in the world you influence? Whose life will you make a difference in? How do you want to be remembered?
Just a couple of questions I'm pondering……
Have you ever seen what can happen to a can of coke when it's frozen and than thaws?????
If you're one of those people who likes to experience things for yourself, by all means try this at home.
But if you're someone who likes to learn from others mistakes you may want to be cautious about this.
I keep my pop in the garage. In the summer it's in the fridge out there and in the winter I typically just set it in our unheated garage.
Well, on Saturday I was feeling a little thirsty for some of my beverage of choice….so I brought this can in, realizing that it was "bulging".
I figured if I thaw it out it would be fine. I couldn't set it in the upright position because of the "bulginess" of its contents, so I laid it beside my sink.
I was busily trying to prepare my pizza for dinner when I heard this gun shot noise go off right behind me. It was one of those moments where everything stops. All I could hear was a ringing in my left ear. I turned around to see Diet Coke Chunks and liquid sugar sprayed all over my entire kitchen. Up the walls, on the cabinets, across the floor and all over the counters. It was to my good fortune that it was laying sideways, because if it would have been pointing up it surely would have shot a hole right into the ceiling! As it was, the entire lid came pummeling across the width of my kitchen and hit the refrigerator. I am glad the children were not raiding the fridge at that precise moment! A metal can to the back of the head would be a bit painful, I suspect!
There was a positive element to the story….my kitchen got a major cleaning. With the help of J we had that mess cleaned up in about 15 minutes.
The funny thing is my 9 year old son, picked up the top of the lid, held it up and said, "hey mom….blog this…."
Nothing can happen around here anymore where the whole family doesn't think, "that really should be made public knowledge".
Sometimes it takes me a couple of days to get up the courage to share it, but I always seem to come around.
Monday, January 19, 2009
We did do hot chocolate and we played fox and geese today.
I remember as a kid I could go for hours out in the white, powdery stuff.
It's one of those things that I force myself to do out of a simple thing called …the joy of making my children smile!
Yep, that's it. The smiles on their faces! I love to see that!
So after joining them for awhile today I told them I would make them some "snow cream", as they like to call it.
1 can sweetened condensed milk
1 tsp vanilla
Use a big spoon or spatula and stir until evenly distributed.
Serve or add toppings.
I want to apologize for not getting this Cherry Cloud that I promised you in last week.
This is a light dessert(by light I do not mean low cal) that is one of our favorites. We had it for our Christmas eve dinner and I may serve it again for Valentine's Dinner.
3 egg whites
1/4 tsp cream of tartar
3/4 C. sugar
Beat egg whites and cream of tartar until foamy(a long time). Beat in Sugar 1 T at a time. In meantime, cut large circles out of paper bag and place on a round pizza pan. Once mixture is fairly stiff, spread onto paper bag, making a a round shape with a spatula, mound up around the sides to create a "nest like" look. Bake 1 1/2 hours at 275. When finished, cool and carefully peel paper off back of shell.
1 pkg(8oz) cream cheese
1/2 C. sugar
1/2 tsp vanilla
1 C. Cool whip
mix cream cheese, sugar and vanilla together. Fold in cool whip. Spread mixture into center of shell. Top with can cherry pie filling.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Disappointment is a part of life.
You know if I ever meet someone who has never been disappointed it probably Will mean they are either living on another planet or they simply just aren't in touch.
I don't like when people just pass off their disappointment as if it doesn't matter or even exist.
It doesn't seem genuine to me.
But neither is it fun to be around someone who is always playing the victim.
Like life is just sorry....negativity just seeps from their pores.
Unfortunately I have probably been both these people from time to time.
What is the cause of disappointment?
My first thought is:
Typically, the higher my expectations of a person or situation are the more disappointed I become when they fail..
Some of my expectations may be legitimate like, if I'm married, I can expect my husband to be faithful to me.
But what happens when my hopes are disappointed?
Because eventually they may be.
Because we're people.
We mess up.
We do! We do.
And if I expect something like...marriage,a baby,new job,bigger house,new community...is going to bring me only happiness I can count on this....
I WILL be disappointed.
The second thing I think about is:
When I feel left out or excluded from something I would really like to be a part of, I feel disappointment.
Because I'm rejected.
Really, Who enjoys that?
It's one of the worst things ever!
To feel like you are unwanted!
When that person who you thought you would share life with walks out on you. Or when your best friend all of a sudden is no longer available for you. Or when the child whom you've loved since birth decides they no longer want you in their life.
Rejection is painful!
The third thing is:
You know there is this horrible thing that exists in our world called
Sin or Evil.
I hate that because of sin we live in a broken, fallen world.
It makes me sad that my nephew has to spend time in a hospital bed, because of evil.
Not because he personally deserves a punishment.
But because we all have fallen short of the glory of God.
It's disappointing to me!
Why does he have to suffer?
Today I am going to answer my own questions by writing this song down.
I wrote it several years ago specifically with my nephew Benji in mind.
He has CF.
He was born with it.
He is my sons best friend.
We don't understand why he was chosen to walk this road but we know that our God is good!
We believe that one day he will wipe all tears from his children's eyes.
There will be no more pain. No more disappointment.No more fear. No more suffering.
Oh yes, We believe!
I also know that my God doesn't ask his children to walk through anything he hasn't himself faced.
He was rejected and despised.
He too, walked the road of suffering.
He was misunderstood. He offended many by his very presence.
I call this song,
It's Unfair God
A little boy named Billy lay in a hospital bed
With his daddy at his side, cradling his head.
And quietly whispers, "why was I made this way
while all the other children get to run and play?"
It's not fair! You never did a thing to deserve this.
My heart breaks to watch you go through it.
You're my son. If I could take the pain I would try.
God only know the tears I cried!
Another boy was born, to the world one starry night
His Father sent him down, from His kingdom in the sky.
He came to show His love for us.
We nailed him to a tree. Yet with His dieing breath
Father forgive them.
It's not fair! You never did a thing to deserve this!
My heart breaks to watch you go through it!
You're my Son. If I could take the pain I would try
I only know the tears I've cried!
It's unfair, God. You do not
give us what
No eye has seen or ear has heard, what you have prepared.
It's not fair! You never did a thing to deserve this,
my broken heart, you came to heal it.
Sinless one. Came to be made sin for all men
Died so we are free to Live! Free to live! It's not fair!
Yes He walked on earth and was flesh like me,
Yet in dealing with his disappointment,
I think that in part is my answer!
With his dieing breath he forgave.As his follower I am asked to do the same.
It is completely unfair that I have exchanged my filthy rags for his righteousness.It's not what I deserve and yet Jesus, out of love made the way for me.
Maybe I can make room in my heart today for that same love.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Now since we are living under piles of snow right now that makes me especially cheerful!
It makes me not even care that my nose hairs are stiff when I went out to the dentist today.
It's not even on my radar that we are only beginning winter and we have below 0 wind chill temps.
Oh the joy of a great deal!!!
And to top it all off I found these cute little things at Pier One over the weekend.
This was thanks to a little tip from my friend bliss over at blissfullyhappy housewife.
4 bowls, 4 daisy embroidered napkins and an icecream/soda fountain cookbook for a grand total of $15
We can all use a pick me up now and again huh?
I am thankful for blessings like these.
Often it's the small things that make me smile!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I love you back!
I want you to know that!
I guess I'll keep the brown....ha!
Also,Thanks for your thoughts on what you would like to read on here.
One of you asked about the bread I mentioned in my my bread bowl and soup post.
I should have given you that recipe right away.
I found this "soft sandwich bun" recipe a number of years ago in a "quick cooking" magazine.
I use it quite frequently.
This is it:
1 1/4 C. Milk
1 egg beaten
2 Tbsp butter, softened
1/4 C. Sugar
3/4 tsp. salt
3 3/4 c. bread flour
1 1/4 tsp. yeast
In bread machine place first seven ingredients. Select dough setting. When cycle is completed turn dough onto lightly floured surface and punch down. Divide dough in half. Roll out and cut. Brush top with melted butter.Cover and let rise until double. Bake at 350 for 10-15 min
So for the bread bowls I simply pull it out of the machine kneading it a bit and divide into 6 equal balls. I let it rise for only about 15 minutes on top of the stove as the oven warms up.
Bake time is the same. So easy! Just cut out the middle once it's baked.
Since I'm giving you recipes today anyway I'll just give you this salad as well.
I started making this salad right around Christmas. I have made it a total of 6 times since then.
Translation: I REALLY like it! And its J's favorite salad!
It's called Romain Lettuce Salad:
1 head romaine lettuce chopped
1 head broccoli or cauliflower cut up
1 pkg ramen noodles, chicken flavor
1 c. pecans or almonds, sliced (optional)
1/2 C sugar
1/4 C vinegar
1/2 C. oil
1/2 tsp. pepper
1 tsp. salt
seasoning from noodles
Cut up romaine lettuce; add broccoli, or cauliflower. Brown broken-up Ramen noodles and pecans in butter; cool enough to add lettuce. To make dressing, heat the sugar and the vinegar enough to melt the sugar. Cool and add the rest of the ingredients. Add dressing to lettuce, just before serving.
WE are anticipating some nasty weather...they keep telling us blizzard like conditions. Right now the sun is shining... so.... whatever! But we are hunkering down making sure we have lots of milk and bread. Maybe some hot soup and bread again tonight!
I wanted to show you this dessert.... I will post later this week.
If you heart cheese cake you will like this!
Happy Winter Days to you!
Monday, January 12, 2009
Well this was the day.
I took care of the unsettledness in me.
I have been dealing with lots of broken, damaged ends and it was just time to do something completely different.
Last week I was in the check out line... do you remember my luck with lines...Yeah, well, it was one of those times. I switched lines and managed to hang out in the store an extra 15 minutes...So, to kill some time I scanned the magazines and saw this stunning picture of a well known actress(I have since found out) Mariska Hargitay.
I immediately knew what I would do. She convinced me!
I love to switch it up with my hair. You know what I mean? I take the approach that hair and color is a lot like painting a room. I like to switch that up quite frequently as well.
I figure it's not a big deal.
Plus that if someone hates my hair one day they just might like it better the next day.
My sister is nothing like me in this area....She thinks I'm nuts.
I like it!
So here I am this morning....
I'm getting amazing at these self portraits!
And 4 hours later...
OH YES I DID!
OK that's all. That's all I got.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
We moved right on to bread bowls and Soup.
Do you make bread? Well that's perfect because I don't. Well, not in the traditional sense.
I have tried for years but it just never turns out as great as I want it to. So I have become dependant on a machine.
Yay for the invention of the bread maker!
While I am not a fan of bread baked in the machine I do love to use it on the "dough" setting.
I dump my ingredients in and in 1 1/2 hours the dough is ready to put on my pan. I let it rise on the stove top while the oven is warming up and then I pop it in the oven at 350 for 15-20 minutes.
So easy! You can do this ~ I know you can!
I use this yummy kind of sweet, white bread recipe. It is actually for dinner rolls. When I am making bread bowls I just make them a little bit larger. This particular recipe works perfect because it splits into 6 big rolls.
And this is the result....
The ingredients for this simple soup is as follows:
6-7 potatoes cooked,peeled and shredded
1 (16 oz) bag frozen broccoli
2 Cups chicken broth
1 1/2 Cup milk
1 can evaporated milk
2 tsp salt
pepper to taste
1/2 lb. cubed and diced melting cheese
Cook your frozen broccoli just until thawed. Drain and put in blender. (I leave a little water so it will blend better) Warm milk, broth and evaporated milk in large stockpot. Add potatoes, broccoli and seasoning.I also add a little cornstarch to thicken. Let simmer for 10-15 minutes. Add cheese at end.
When I make this I have enough for 2 meals.
If your not a fan of broccoli it could be made as potato soup.But if I chop the broccoli fine enough the non-broccoli lovers in my family like it. At least that's what they say. ha ha!
On a different note....
As you know I am a baby at blogging...well maybe pubescent by now... but I was wondering...Could you give me some feedback on what you like to read about? Is it is more stories, or inspiration, or recipes????
I started this blog primarily because it's a great way to store memories, stories and pictures for future reference but I am also aware that it is a public blog and at least 3 people read it every day....so I want to hear from the 3 of you what you like best....maybe I can do more of that or less of this:)
Okay your turn....
Friday, January 9, 2009
We like to sit down and eat dinner together. Some nights are more challenging than others.
Tonight we had "one of those nights".
We have been working a considerable amount of time (like for the past 13 years) on table manners.
Yeah, I know what a bore! I get so weary of this particular training.
My boys, all though very intelligent in so many ways, seem to be slow learners in this area!
One of my sons is what I would classify as a "shoveler". To describe how he scrunches way down in his seat and leaves not even an inch between his mouth and his plate to pile the food directly into the "pie hole" is simply repugnant to his mother!
And my other son is equally as gifted in stuffing food in the mouth until the expansion of his cheeks is so great that you can practically see every morsel as he gulps it down the hatch.
It's just a total turn off.
Well, tonight as we were eating our spaghetti it was apparent that my sweet sons, whom I have loved from the womb, had thrown every single manner away in their piles of spaghetti.
They were shoveling and stuffing at great speeds and frankly having a wonderful time of it!
When I see them having so much fun flinging food around, chewing lettuce leaves like animals, and slopping up the table, I am driven to say something really intelligent like…
"You need to stop that right now, You weren't raised in a barn".
To which they reply, "what exactly do you mean by that mom?" And after my brief, dictionary explanation, as to what that means they continue with the food fest!
They were laughing and talking and becoming increasingly elevated in their noise level.
By this time we had moved on to our dessert which was in hot debate whether it was pronounced "sherbert"," Sherbet", or "Sorbet".
My patient husband, for some reason, was equally as disturbed as I by the fierceness in which they were consuming the food, and where it was landing.
He was not pleased.
His face became somewhat visibly contorted as he, in a very stern way, reprimanded the entire table for the unconsciousness in which people were eating, talking with full mouths, and flinging food.
The entire conversation stopped cold.
Until one of the boys whispered, "It's quiet".
And than J said, "There, I guess I took care of that"!
And I started shaking from laughter until I had laugh tears streaming down my face.
He too started laughing and the children all begin laughing and sighing with relief!
At that moment I may or may not have reached up and scratched an itch under my arm.
My "shoveler" son, said, "Hey mom, better not scratch your arm pit at the table, People may ask if you were raised in a rain forest".
To which the whole table erupted in monkey noises, and armpit monkey gestures.
Laughing tears were streaming down my face.
All in all, I know table manners aren't the most important thing in life.
I'm not giving up though! I will have these boys trained one day.
After all, I don't want their wives to look at me Someday and say,
"Did you raise him in a barn"?
So this is it:
I like the site Picnik.com...
I'm on a slow computer right now so I can't link it very well for you but if you just google it, it will come right up.
You download a picture for FREE and edit it. That's it! Save it back on to your computer... Then you can either print it or post it on your page.
You can buy a premium package but what you see here is not the premium.
I recently discovered "scrapblog", which I am interested in learning more about. It isn't photo editing. But you can arrange your photos..So cute!
There you go...Happy Picniking!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
And to give myself a little birthday present I decided to post a couple pictures that I have been working on.
Yeah I know...Its almost nauseating but....Who cares! It's my birthday!
Here are these cuties....Sophie and her friend Jackson. That's sugar all over their faces.
I am loving photography and all the tricks to enhancing pictures. I think it may be fun to take more classes to learn other tricks and "fun-ness" of picture taking and editing.
I'm so lucky to be me.....Cause I got you!
Monday, January 5, 2009
We worshiped Jesus the servant king.
I am so captivated by the thought that this great and mighty one,
The almighty creator.
The one who flung the stars into space.
The one who said to the waters stop here and they did.
The one who rolled back the waters of the sea so his people would not drown.
The one who created heaven and earth.
He is the same one who took on flesh and became a helpless baby.
We hear this story so often that sometimes it's kind of like "yeah, I know, cool"....
But really? Really?
That's way more than cool!
You know what it does for me? It says "Nothing is really impossible for this King that I worship".
These problems that seem so great to me really "aint a thing" to him!
Yeah, even the big issues. Even the mountains that are impossible for me to scale!
All this is so minimal to the one who made the mountain.
I am facing some of those mountains right now...
I am sure that God isn't surprised that they feel like mountains to me. He knows me well.
One of the things J said yesterday in the message is "God gives us what we need not what we want".
When Jesus came to earth the Jews knew what they wanted. They wanted someone to come and deliver them from the oppression of the Romans. They wanted a warrior that would strike their enemies dead.
But God knew what they needed.
They needed a Redeemer.
Oh, yes, that's it!
I want someone to come and take this problem away.
I want to have everything fixed now.
I want to be blessed with all good things.
I want....I want.....I want....
And sometimes God chooses to give me these gifts. Sometimes he intervenes and moves the mountain.
But sometimes God knows this isn't what I need.
In order to "grow me up" he chooses to give me what I need instead.
My response to him is this.
Lord, today in spite of my wants I desire you more. I am choosing to believe you. I know all things are possible for you. I know you have a plan for my life. A plan to give me hope and a future. To bring me good and not harm. I know I can trust you with my life. You are a good God and I am thankful to be your daughter.
Today I trust you my King!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
I pray that these eyes will always be happy!